I was talking with Kjersty, my friend of 10+ years, and I was telling her about a time in High School when something happened and how she kind of stuck up for me but I have forever wished I would have had a different reaction to the situation because the person really made me mad. Like, I wished they would have died right then and there mad and all I did was start crying as soon as she walked away.
Anyway, we spent a LOT of time together in high school so we had a lot of the same experiences; however, we have very different memories of things that took place. She doesn't recall the above event at all, while I still have a hard time falling asleep at night when I think about it (which to be honest happens about once every 5 years but it still happens).
My point is, it's so interesting for me to look back at my high school experience and the things I remember. The things I thought were so important and the things I thought would end my world. Oh, how important every event of my life was back then.
Why is it that while in High School you have such a hard time seeing the fact that life goes on? It goes on for a LONG LONG time. In fact, there were so many nights that I spent thinking I would rather die than go to school for one more day (and not because I hated school - quite the opposite - but because the boy of my dreams had broken my heart, or I had fallen down in a huge mud puddle and gone through the rest of the day at school in my gym clothes). But I survived all of that and made it to college and had the same things happen and survived those things too, but looking back I feel like I was so silly. Now, there are still things in life that happen that I still become quite dramatic over but I hope that I have a bit more perspective then I did back in High School.
Anyway, I survived high school thanks to all the great friendships I had. They were always there to let me know life did go on and when they had their problems I hope I was there for them in the same way. So, for all my friends from High School that I'm still lucky enough to have contact with (which is actually quite a few), I'm really grateful for those friendships. Love you girls!!
2 comments:
yep, it's funny how kids and teenagers seem to only see the world from their view and not the world at large and it's humiliating to think of how i acted back then. i'll blame it on lack of experience, lack of service, and hormones.
This is something I have thought a lot about. I totally remember in high school feeling like this was it. If high school wasn't just what I wanted it to be, my life was pretty well over. Now, I look back and wonder what I was thinking. My life has only gotten better since graduating. College was a much more fulfilling experience where I made more friends, had more fun, and learned more what life is all about. I would never want to go back. I'm thoroughly embarrassed when I think about myself in high school, and I kind of hope no one even remembers me.
I think I could go on and on about this. It's too bad you just can't realize when you are a teenager that life goes on. I remember people trying to tell me that, but I didn't really believe them. They were right.
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